here or there

The little one is asleep again and I have a big fat ugly cold. Ok so maybe it doesn't actually embody all of those descriptive words but its still not very pleasant. I have an empty cup of mint tea sitting beside me with (obviously) Charlie Brown on the front of it :

"good grief" Thanks Charlie thats exactly how i feel.

I guess I don't feel too inspired to write today, but i feel like I have to get some things out. Its hard being here in Rhode Island.. there I said it. I thought that when we moved back here we would have this sort of daunting confirmation that this is the place we'd be staying. Its been almost a year (sorta kinda) and still no daunting confirmation.

Maybe we won't get that.

Maybe we will.

Maybe we'll move

to some place far away

or close to family

or far from family

or near a school

or two

and some good jobs

that make us feel complete

: you know now that a job would fulfill us... we're already fulfilled in our relationship w/ Christ... but something that He wants us to be doing... I guess thats what we're seeking. We want to do and be where we're supposed to.

So my student loan payments are due soon and I did send my resume off to various places. Since there is nothing in my field here in RI, and I want to stay home with little AJ for the time being. I opted to apply for a position at the Apple Store in the mall. I really feel as though Christ would take a position like that too... meeting people, listening, loving, helping them grow closer to God.. I guess thats what it all about. And I do have hope that the light of God would shine through me. .. well i guess thats all i can hope for.

So they want me to come for an interview type seminar on Sunday

I guess I'll go

see what kind of hours they're offering

see if it works for us

for the time being

maybe months

before we figure this whole living here thing out

or living there